Well one disturbing thing I would like to share is the fact that all of these people remember something horrible like that, yet I can't remember any of my child hood. Really. Not much before I was like 8. I know I was alive, but everything is foggy. And that bothered me alot. Also I have talked to friends about parent-child incest "fantasies". Like one girl I knew once told me she had this dream where she was laying pregnant on a bed and her father was the father of the child. I know that she was never molested but the father was an alcholic who she had no respect for. There are other things which I would rather not talk about on the boards. Not because of anyone here, but I am afraid of my parents searching through my history and finding any posts about things I don't want them to know about. Its a rare possibility, but a risk I am not willing to take in this case.
It makes me feel very alone in the world. These last few podcasts. I don't remember much abuse when I was young, or much of anything about my parents. I don't respect them. They once denied reality infront of me, which after that I never took them seriously. I mostly remember school as being a greater source of abuse than my parents. However, Its like, I will be walking around school a month from now looking at people, wondering who is a time bomb because of what their parents did to them last night. I mean I have known for a year or so that everyone has parentalabuse, But I had no idea. Considering the huge amound of mexican-origin people at the school I will be going to, it will be like half the people will have been molested by somone, most of them by someone they knew.