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I believe, since I already shared my history of my life with my father--Available  at    http://freedomainradio.com/board/forums/thread/75822.aspx    ---------  , I should also share my general life.  I have always been a "strange" boy. In kindergarten, I 'Solved' my problems by beating up on other kids and generally being bossy. Thankfully, I somehow found my way free of this hellhole by the second grade.  Thanks to the horrors of public education (and even worse, American!), and my controlling, rude, hypocritical, and hypochondriacal Mother, I survived 3rd-7th grade by acting so weird that I alienated myself from all my peers.  This hellhole of antisocialism eventually led to me attempting to kill myself twice; Once by eating poisonous substances, then again with pwills at age 13. Between those years, I went to treatment centers 30 times--23 times to one Residential Treatment Center, and the other seven times spread out at different places.                                                                                                                                                            I only stayed for a week or two each time, except for one visit that lasted NINE FREAKIN' MONTHS--And I have only recently truly gotten better. I am currently learning how wrong the beliefs I have had for so long are. For a whole year, I convinced everyone but me that I believed -- Gasp -- That the 'Rapture' was coming.  That, in fact, is how I ended up with the only eMail/Username I can seem to remember, the one I have now. I am learning moreevery day about how to apply the principles that Stefan has mercifully revealed to me--without whom, I am sure, I would be -- The Horror! -- A Politician!!!----As I had so foolishly believed that being would give me the sudden ability to somehow decrease the power of the state. This is where I am today--15 years old, turning 16 in about half a month.              Thanks, Again, for reading, and please let me know any thoughts you would like to share with me.    Thank you, Stefan, most of all, for having a free podcast that is teaching me how to apply the principles of philosophy to my life (in other words, be happy), and to learn how to show other people the sensibility of Anarcho-Capitalism! 

Touching story man. I also went through the Christian psychosis and I totally feel you on that one. Your lucky you found rationality when you did. Your still young and I can't even tell you what a huge favor you did for your self, if you don't already know. I was 20 when I finally broke free of the corrupt teaching of my religious father and narcissism of my mother. I'm 21 now so I'm still relatively knew to anarcho-capitalism. I wish you all the best and I know your are going to get a deeper understanding of the corruption your were tough if you keep up the philosophy. Breath deep my friend thats freedom you smell!

Thanks for the advice; I don't want to pretend to be a master of psychology-or even highly skilled in it. In the realm of Psychology, I am as a newborn babe, not even old enough to  remain awake for more than 4 hours a day. I mean, I have only been a listener to Stefan's podcasts for a little over 6 months now--I just, thankfully, have never been able to competely surremder myself to the horrors of conformity.  Also, I have been extremely lucky that I have not been nearly as exposed to the corruption of bad parenting as many others-including Stefdan- had to survive. And, thankfully, I have Stefan's Podcast and Message Boards, Whithout which, I would be almost unavoidably lost forever.  Thanks, Stefan!

Well it's sounds like you want to move in the right direction. Indeed Stef's pod cast are an invaluable assets to any rational human being, thats why I think it is so admirable that he distributes them for free. I also had a problem with submitting to authority just like you mentioned. "You have serious issues with authority" my teachers would say to me at the huge public school I attended in Toronto. I don't think they knew what to do with me. They couldn't beat me cause that's illegal and I simply would not accept there ridiculous appeals of "respect for your superiors" and not respect for those who deserve it. To be honest I don't know how I ever made it through high school. I still get depressed when I think about it.

introspector:

I also had a problem with submitting to authority just like you mentioned. "You have serious issues with authority" my teachers would say to me at the huge public school I attended in Toronto. I don't think they knew what to do with me. They couldn't beat me cause that's illegal and I simply would not accept there ridiculous appeals of "respect for your superiors" and not respect for those who deserve it. To be honest I don't know how I ever made it through high school. I still get depressed when I think about it.

I know exactly what you mean- They have no better way to try to 'Earn' your respect than to tell you that you are less than them. But, don't let the past depress you ; just imagine them trying that 'argument' on you <I>now</I>: not so much fun for them, huh? 

raptureme200:

just imagine them trying that 'argument' on you <I>now</I>

Gaaahhh!! There's that FDR HTML Again! NOTE- My really old Mac refuses to register any text-editing button clicks as part of the text-- so it doesn't work.

I know this thread was posted a while ago, but I just had to say something. Admittedly I've never tried to kill myself, but Iknow someone who has. I just met him last school year. most of me other friends want to stop hanging out with him, but I think if we leave him it might just drive him over board..

Get him into counselling, or if that doesn't work, give him a few podcasts, but you can't handle this as a friend, no one could...

Actually, I think he's a lot better than at the begining of the school year. he knows what he was doing was not the right thing to do.

I forgot to mention this all this happened 2 years ago.